I don’t understand how the one person who always says he loves me so much can be the biggest asshole sometimes. Nobody can hurt me the way he does. & what is it tonight? He ignores me. Can’t give me 5 minutes worth of a phone cal but instead shuts his phone off & gives me the big fuck you. & before that, he broke a promise. I swear, I don’t want this anymore. I love him but I don’t want this. I can’t do it. I can’t take it. Love shouldn’t be this hard. Yes, it has it’s challenges but it shouldn’t be this complicated. It isn’t right. It isn’t fair. How disrespectful can one person be?? I’m so done. So done!!! This is so fucked up. So fucked up. All because he wants to stay out drinking with his fucked up whore of a cousin who can only fuck girls but never find true love. So low. So fucked up. I’m so done. I so upset!!